still some things that are going on as always. umm i dont remember what i said in the last one but one sec ill go look and then go on from there....

ok so i know where i am at now. had to read the past two or three but yea. so things with the significant other had gotten better for the past two weeks or so but last night shit hit the fan again. hard. so much for trying to start over and let things die. but yea didnt work out at all. and we arent going to either. i mean i didnt want to be divorced at 20 almost 21 but yea here i am. we keep fighting and it doesnt seem to stop or have an end to it. i had hopes that maybe we would get together but i dont think its gonna happen. i wanted our daughter to be raised in a happy family where mom and dad get along and yea....but having a baby isnt a good enough reason to stay in an unhappy relationship. we got into it again tonight and its just...blah i cant even think strait about it all. so imma leave it there but things arent gonna be good i dont think....pretty sure.

shig going on with the navy is stupid too. drama drama drama. i told you already about the shit before and thats all been handled now but when actually comes to working the duty section is doing nothing but bitch. its mostly the people that are shit bags and dont do what they are supposed to but its still people that bitch. they are saying i am going on a power trip. ive been in staff for the past eight months so i dont see how its a power trip since i havent changed how i handle the duty section. we are they only duty section that doesnt get in trouble. so ive got people complaining about not having their blues or that they are fucked up or in the nex getting cleaned so i have called an entire duty section blues inspection on saturday. yea they are gonna hate me. im also doing duty section training that day too. ive got like no females do stand all the watched and now ive got barely enough so the ones who try to get duty free i say no too so they are bitching about all that shit too. one went behind my back and was totally fuckin shady about it. and im losing like four females in the next two weeks and its gonna suck again. im losing my assit section leader and they are wanting to put a fleet returnee in her spot and we all got pissed. he is a good guy and i like him as a person but he turns into a total ass when put in power. they are putting him in there so he could have his eval done so he could take the second class exam. he shouldnt get it just for that...its ridiculous. positions are given for merit, no so that some one else who didnt earn it could try and get ahead. i talked to ht2 about it and she said ok and that we were gonna put him in staff but at the bottom. i told him and he didnt seem to happy about it and said he is gonna go talk to ht2 himself. fuck him i dont care. we all decided that he if he is going into the assit spot then all the rest of the staff is going to step down.....oh well again ill leave that one there too i guess.

i am going to become freemason. i am so excited about that i cant express it...i went to the lodge tonight where two other guys where going to become a master mason and get their thrid dregree. i get to get my first one next thursday. im so excited. this febuary is gonna be a busy month for me. i get my first degree on the third, i turn 21 on the tenth, i get my third class petty officer on the 16 and then i get my second and third degree on the 24 and become a master mason. this month is gonna be epic. the only downside i see is that the three most important people up here to me are leaving next monday and then next friday. it really sucks im gonna miss them so much. they have truly changed my life for the better and i thank them so much for it.

i think thats about it for now and that i think im caught up to everything. if i remember something ill come back and let ya know =) blessed be