its times like these that make me wish that i went a different route with things. gone to college full time and wen to one of those ivy league schools that i probably couldnt get into anyway. done well in high school instead of fucking around and doing things i shouldnt have. my life would have been very different. idk if i would have ever joined the military in the first place. life would have been very different if i knew then what i knew now. everyone must think that same thing i wouljd imagine but im gonna try and teach that to my chold. i know that all of my parents tried to teach me that. i learned it for about six months total while i was in high school i would think. but it didnt quiet stick. things would have been very different. i would never have met some of the really cool peop;e that i have now and i would never have gotten married or would be have this kid. theres not point in dwelling on what i should have done or what i wish were to be happening instead. instead i wish that i could figure out what i need to do in order to get to as close to what it is i want. idk i guess im just bitching again but hey this is a blog isnt it? yea a blog that nobody reads and i dont wanna make this public because i dont wanna hear the bitching from other people.....let them write their own blog lol