so everything is falling apart. the only thing minus emma that i had going for me is going down the shitter. nothing is going for me anymore. now im kinda glad that i cant go to virginia now. i wouldnt have any friends there anymore. i dont have any on the west coast either. so what am i to do? i feel like im about a step away from getting kicked out of the navy and then ill be totally screwed. i dont know what to do. im kinda glad that i never shared this blog with anyone because i feel so fucking pathetic its ridiculous. i read my horoscope alot but i dont put alot into it because they tend to be so vague that you can make it out to whatever you want it to most of the times but it told me that my karma from last year was gonna bit me in the ass and it appears to have come true. and im stuck here until march and idk what i am going to do. those two people that i hang out with the most and spent all of my time with and i do mean all of my time with no want nothing to do with me because someone who they say would never lie to them told them i was lying. idk how i would have gotten around to doing what i am being accused of even if i had wanted to. i mean i spend all the time i have with them....i feel so pathetic and all i wanna do is to crawl into a bottle and just end it all...