have you ever just stared at a snowflake before? i mean truly just .....stared. try and look at all the unique designs that one could not possibly discover. you seem to see a general shape and then look around the edges more and you see soemthing that doesnt quite follow what was previous. so you look in the center and all you really see is a some what solid center. try and more in deepth and you see its just a mess itself. many people might say they have done this but very few truly have. this particular one reminds me of how my life seems to be right now. you can see a general idea of what you want to happen and see whats going on but you never know what is coming and you get these unexpected twists and turns. right before you think you have soemthing figured out, the snow flake either gets blown away or melts. kinda tells me that your not supposed top try and figure out whats next or what your going to do.

last night i was asked to give two people a reading. reluctantly i agreed because of a promise made a few months back. i reminded them that i hadnt done this in almost two years and that i cant promise anything. the first one went well. she said everything was very right. she was happy about it. the second one not so well. this person said they were my friend but they down played the whole thing from the start. did nothing but make it more diffuclut and in the end made me feel bad about the whole thing. they said i was mean about it all. made me feel like shit.