so again its been a little while since ive posted something or said anything. i always say that im going to do this more often and it happens for a little bit but then i get caught up in other things so since im to lazy to go read the last one im just gonna try and do an over all recap on everything that is going on with me lately.

i am officially a freemason. i am an entered apprentice mason but still a mason none the less. i will move up to second degree on the 26th of this month and again to master mason on the same day. not the norm by any means but they are pushing me through because i am transferring to pensacola on the 30th of march so they are making it so that i can travel and be able to go to any lodge. im so thankful for that but its hard to memorize all of this stuff on such a constricted time table. ive been out of theatre for a while and im not used to memorizing things like this. and the fact that so much has been going on with work and the rest of life doesnt help that fact out.

with work...well we were short on females for watches but that got taken care of because i just got like 13 new ones so that is cool. dealing with the normal shitbags but again, thats normal. duty section has actually gotten alot better and im not sure why but i am by no means complaining. could it be that me actually following through on the promises of making it harder have actually paid off and made things easier? possibly? idk but its cool. i get frocked tomorrow to petty officer third class which means i go up in rank for those if you who dont understand what that means. in my rate it doesn't mean any more respect because we get it automatically but i do get a pay raise so that will be more than welcome.

things on the personal life front are alright. i turned 21 five days again so that was cool. didnt do anything special cause i was on duty but still didnt do anything special that weekend. not much into partying anymore. not sure why. had a beer with some friends but thats about it. the love life is still so complicated. idk who all reads this if anyone at all so i gotta kinda censor it. i keep coming back to this feeling whenever things start to get bad again. i feel a little depressed. i miss home. i miss cali. i never thought i would i was so incredibly ready to get out and now i cant wait to get back. i miss the dryness of the desert. for some reason i miss my friends. or my old friends. cant really call them that anymore i dont think. i miss my friends who left so much. i miss my music! i miss the feeling of just playing. even by myself just enjoying my crappy playing. i miss how i used to be. the good aspects anyway. i miss how patriotic i was. i still am but it just feels different being on this end i guess. idk what else right now so im gonna say goodnight.