so...

everything is still in the same places as before but just more sour i guess. i think that one of my biggest pet peeves is that when i know someone is lying to me and they dont have the balls to be upfront about it when you ask them. that they still feel the need for soem reason to lie about it. it just pisses me off more. i mean i tell you its ok and you can be honest i wont be mad or anything and still they lie. its going on on to fronts. just one of them i havent been as direct about it but i still think that she is lying about it all and that something really happened with her and that guy. what is one supposed to do? idk but it sucks. i dont really remember what the last post is so im gonna see if this just builds on each other. for obvious reasons i cant say names or mention anything specifically because this is a public site and i could get in trouble but yea....idk what to do. i just want my verbals so that i know where and when i am going so i can plan accordingly. i just wanna go home. i want to go back to california and visit the few friends that i still do out there. which is few and far between but still. im going to colorado for stand down and i get to see my family out there which i am very excited about. but you cant blame me for missing my home town can you? maybe you can maybe you cant. again ill im doing is just venting i guess. i guess thats all for now...im gonna try and keep this up to date...more for my own thing i guess